When Ultraman appears in reality, however:

Chapter 769 Making people laugh

Xiao Xiaobai continued to state.

"My sister said, 'Not bad, it suits you very well.' When I saw myself in the mirror, I was shocked. I will never forget that shock.

So I learned makeup from my sister, always asking her to give me clothes she rarely wore, and I practiced for a long time."

"It's great that your family supports your ideals!"

"Indeed, judging from the traditional Chinese values, there won't be much support from family members. After all, sons are favored over daughters. Although the current development logic and actual experience are debatable."

Therefore, the Spring and Autumn Annals immediately made supplements.

“Well, yes, after I learned how to put on makeup, I started cosplaying a lot of characters. But cosplay is different from regular makeup. Although it’s difficult, I have a lot of fun.

Our family is quite open-minded, and my mother has given me a lot of advice. I feel really happy when she praises me for my progress."

When he said this, Qin Haoyu couldn't help but sigh.

Although no one could hear him, his mentality at the moment was different.

In the past, he didn't care. There were many people around him, many weak people, but he never cared and it didn't matter at all.

Even though his father died in an absurd way, even though his mother always told him that he just needed to study.

No matter how dark the situation was at home, he managed to get through it. His parents still loved him, but he was indifferent and cold-blooded, and only recently realized their good side.

But, but...

Before he could name the person in his mind, Xiao Xiaobai continued.

“I’m not tall and my voice is thin. I used to hate myself, but when I cosplay, I feel like I become another person. Only then do I like myself.

After I went to college, there were still people willing to be my girlfriend, but after she came to my house, everything suddenly changed. "

In his memory, Xiao Xiaobai's ex-girlfriend saw him wearing women's clothing.

"What is this? Are you living with another woman?"

"No, that's all mine...myself."

"Huh? Do you take me for an idiot? How can a boy have such a small skirt?"

Gu Chunqiu clenched his fists when he heard this. Although he was wearing men's clothes, he couldn't help but feel indignant when he heard this.

"I said at the time, it's really mine, I've always been wearing women's clothes... I just wear them for fun."

……

"Are you sick? Why don't you play this instead of something else? Throw it all away, it's disgusting!"

"Well...I see."

……

"And then... I dumped her!"

Xiao Xiaobai laughed heartily, but there was still a subtle sadness in his expression.

"I'm sorry, I just blurted it all out in the excitement."

However, Lin Yue on the side remained silent for a long time. Xiao Xiaobai murmured after seeing this.

"Are you... okay? Eh? Why are you crying? I'm sorry, it's all my fault... You're dressed so cutely, don't make your face look messy..."

"But... seeing how many clothes you have, anyone with a discerning eye can tell how much you love them. Why, why would I dare to ask you to throw them all away..."

The words went from sadness to anger. "If it were me, I would never forgive her!"

"Thank you. I don't take it to heart anymore. It's all in the past. When my ex-girlfriend asked me to throw away the clothes, I thought about what my future would be like if I gave up what I wanted to do. I don't want to give up myself to please others.

But sometimes, I am still a little sensitive. When Chunqiu asked me if I was wearing women's clothing, I suddenly worried that you would say I was disgusting. "

"No, I don't think that's the case!"

"Yeah, I'm sorry... I shouldn't have doubted you, and... a lot of people approached me today. They knew I was dressed as a woman, but they didn't find it disgusting. Just because someone said it once doesn't mean everyone will say it.

Thanks to you, I feel that coming here today is really worthwhile.”

"Yeah... next time you encounter something so uncomfortable, you must tell us." Lin Yue said after wiping her tears. However, at this moment, Qin Haoyu, who had always been on the edge, actually laughed out loud.

“Pfft… hehe…”

The smile was a little ugly, but also a little sarcastic.

It seemed like it was directed to himself, and also to Yue Ji.

Isn't this kind of conversation too fucking funny?

Can this be called pain?

"why are you laughing?"

Gu Chunqiu asked in surprise, but Qin Haoyu just shook his head and said, "It's okay, I just feel it's a little funny and absurd."

Qin Haoyu's laughter was as dry as sandpaper. He leaned against the wall with his head tilted, and there were still small wounds between his fingers left by the battle.

He looked at the lingering sadness on Xiao Xiaobai's face, at Lin Yue's red eyes, and at Gu Chunqiu's tightly pursed lips, and felt an indescribable anger stuck in his throat.

Xiao Xiaobai's smile froze on his face, and he subconsciously clenched the corner of his clothes; Lin Yue blinked, holding back the tears that had just been wiped away, his eyes full of confusion; Gu Chunqiu frowned, tapping his knees lightly with his fingertips, obviously not understanding the origin of the laughter.

Qin Haoyu's shoulders were shaking from laughing, and he didn't stop until tears of rationality appeared in the corners of his eyes.

"Damn. I'm probably crazy. I'm not a complete idiot, but I still find it ridiculous."

The air solidified instantly.

Xiao Xiaobai's face paled, and he moved his lips but said nothing. Lin Yue bit her lip, the grievance she had just suppressed surging back up. She whispered back, "But... being called disgusting by the person you like, being asked to throw away your most beloved things, that's already very hurtful..."

"Hurting people?" Qin Haoyu suddenly raised his head, his eyes filled with an almost ferocious mockery, "Of course... Actually, there is no problem in theory, after all, the degree is different.

It's reasonable to like something and resist something you dislike. There's nothing wrong with it. You could even say I have a problem at the moment, but... "

His thoughts drifted uncontrollably back to those dark nights - his mother sat on the sofa crying silently, but would only repeat "You just need to study hard, that's all."

This is nothing, many people are like this.

"I know you had a hard time before, but don't be like this." Gu Chunqiu reminded, but Qin Haoyu shook his head again.

"No, my life is very comfortable, as are all of us. What we have been through is nothing in the long river of history, but someone I know, the person I know, has suffered pain that no one knows."

"But pain cannot be compared. When you are very sad, wouldn't it be better to understand each other?" Lin Yue added, but Qin Haoyu, who had just suppressed his anger, grinned again.

"So what if he was denied... He survived his childhood relying on the will to survive, relying on fate and flesh and blood... But he never cried. When faced with real pain, he just... fucking faced it.

What does it mean that pain cannot be compared? ? If only we could change it!!!"